normally Xmas is a time of summaries but April and Easter its also good- time between the terms and good moment to check some of this year plan but now something from EB foty- summary of the year:D EB year its good to be its good to be one the EB:-)

expro final update

During this conference I got to know my strenghts and although I found out about them earlier, only then did I realize that Im focusing too much on my weaknesses, on EXPRO I realized this is not the point. I started to work on myself. Actually I understood I CAN BE A LEADER & I WANT TO BE ONE!!!
LN day - various thoughts, especially about a little bit poor content:(. But movie inconvenient truths was sth amazing!
You have to watch it!!
I'm sometimes and somehow unable to control my emotions. Crying from such random reasons. Still do you know that recently there have been some polar bears sinking cause they cannot reach ice? Brutal! I unedrstood relations & connections in our life: e.g.
its not about screaming make all zoo animals free if they will have no place to live.
Its not about increasing X numbers if we wont be the one wishing to live this eXPerience, understanding % acknowleding its quality.
Then focus on organization, in the same time discussions and digging in yourself.
Its really a must conference for our next lcp whoever it will be. if the LC wants to be really @ successful.
Network, different points of view, undoubtedly week of life so far!
Packaging eXPerience and way back home. Really really strange!
never before have i fel like crying sooo much! and actually cried.
AAAAAAA:]
Then few hours in Sofia. Thx to IRa:-) normal tea yes- now I know I will have to bring mine hmmm
exploring Sofia and Bg
Chat, getting things & impressions together, trip to the airport - I'm able to get there alone! jupi!
No internet- cause I was flying from brand new airport really European one:-).
Chats with Blago and Ivo - realizing & feeling so many things; just shocking:-) It was soooo ql that they dropped in:D
and home home home!
never before so happy about this!
missing so much EXPRO atmosphere and people but also wanting to see my family!
Do need Easter
:D
eh getting used to challenges:D
Maybe thats true that this is my natural environment?

backing on the route

ok so more or less coming back on the route
with finanse made some analysis, conclusions do my best to work it out
no net sitll but have my card
and till easter will try to borrow from my mum then
buy on allegro
coming back to expro!
Trying to understand BG reality, behaviours, sth really, hard working on my character & attitudes. Sth even harder:/
Parties till the very morning and then active attendance at all sessions!
Dancing @ dances - reminding old, so many new, still need to refresh Macedonia one & chacha
So many questions arose in my head:
- what does it membership in AIESEC mean
- who can/ should be called a member
- what kind of expectations do we build. what kind should we build?
How are we fulfilling them?
- what are our values, do we really share & have common?
- how many friendships can we build here and how valuble they are actually?
I dunno the answers but... aswers are not the clue?
questions are sth what count cause they are connected with the future!:]

expro

ok coming back on expro relation:-)
So EXPRO was a big long way to dig deep in myself!
There were some people who really really contributed to this!
Ira- mental support, normal tea, shaping attitudes and much much more!
Klimeczek- for kicking my ass, and of course live being!
Nicky from gaining my attitude and switching it our of aiesec stuff
Woland- for realizing some facts
My home group and especially Romanian migration;-)for doubts, sharing, sth like 6th sense cooperation!
Basia- for giving me this feeling that there will be sb who can support you and understand
Ewelina- for just being open, warm, great
Doris- showing responsibility, accountability, commitment
Ejzja- crazy, mood, parties, high quliaty knowledge, experience, sharing
Chris- parties, nergy @ spirit amazing!!!
Starzol- inspiring talks, out of the box point of view
Abi- openning my eyes to some questions, solutions and approaches
Jarda - passion, enthusiasm, persistence
Marysia - hard thoughts about sense of everything ... as always
Everyday of EXPRO was about discovering and challenging
Team building first cultural shocks & different perspectives:/
will finish post later on- in the mean time i lost my iplus so no net in the house
more and more money to spend etc:/....
so hard and so straaange expro influenced my mood and now reality and hm
feeling lost?:/
hugs

EXPRO

Ira met me on the airport - my biggest surprise of the year!and preparation time!
A long way of personal reflection and self discovery started!:/ Actually in the train I was so tired that I didnt put so much attention to the talks and didnt mind BG then so much. To be frank I slept. Easier for bot sides no needs for ENG. Being on site- amazing, so many known, friendly ppl. And pl delegation, didnt realie before that I can actually have such a good contact with them:-)
Sorry but I will finish this post later on
actually Im in terrible mood cause of money
I think I will have to give up idea of going on ITC:(
one of my dreams- since lack of money
EXPRO cost me around 1000pln
and need around the same for planning conference
its huge amount of money that I actually do not posses
and ITC for the time being is worth another 1000pln:/
actually im trying my best to be solving oriented but its damm hard right now:/:(

LCM & EXPRO

LCM:
agenda- waiting for evaluations to see. Still Im quiet ok with the content, but not number of ppl at sessions. Still assessing newies performance I think it was ok more or less. Sth is changing but this is a start of the process we will se whether its going to be continued.
Election itself- thinking of my successor not able to compare with me from one year ago. It would be ql to have sb assessing similarities and differencies.
Not in case of character but also knowledge, preparation etc.
All of VPs got vote of trust. GA more or less even above my expectations in terms of atmosphere and questions.
And we had a new GA position- DJ cause of some technical problems music was played from another laptop and another one ppt.
But thanks to this Klimeczek got relation online:-)
I started to wonder about some problems that was touched on LCM and choosing one- integration it is so crazy for me cause I really dunno what else can be done about it?
Having plan of integrating events in advance but still only few people will show & in addition this is sth that make company of AIESEC in my opinion. Instead of sponatenous meetings, beer on Wednesday in Equi lets have sth planned &organized...
as consulting has?
And after LCP election took more than one hour to bring ppl down for common celebration- everybody locked in their room & drinking within the team
Sleepless night- as always last one at the conference and we are here... on EXPRO!

:-)

official:-)

partying with Chris

update vol 2

So week before LCM really crazy!
The only different with Klimeczek being in London is that we cannot have wine together:(
the rest is maybe even better:]Mailing instead of gmail is not so bad actually:-)
But still it is much more better that she has internet connection now at her home:D
LCM was the beginning of the experience Im actually lving- amazing one EXPRO
a really big amount of toughts to share and discuss!
so one by another in the posts
and expro u can visit it online:
live.myaiesec.net
:D
hugs

update vol 1

Of course not finding time to write- my crazy life, crazy pace of it.IY and elections in Torun are the past, but this is a past that shapes mark on current and future. Then- school- hard time, seeing that actually I can learn a lot in SGH, I understood that I’m not using a good attitude towards my learning. Actually Im going through hard self reflection, lots of thoughts.

Time at home – Im definitely not the same person as I used to be while living in Ilawa, still some treats and competencies not sure whether Im fully better person now:/Is it my limited capacity- developing sth brings threats of decreasing sth?

It will be hard to go to BG and realize that its not catching train 3 hours and ur at home…

Or no food visits etc from home.

From this point of view we cannot wait till Easter & home food

Conferences time, my mum namesday of course spoil diet plan.

Local Committee Meeting

Thanks Klimeczek, Kasia and Dominika for support in preparation.

sitting on the airport- yeap my favourite place actually havent been here since the beginning of the year- quiet strange of course not enough time so will write more hope from expro
nevertheless we have lcp elect for the term 07/08
BOMBA!!!!

get up stand up

my pace of life is crazy
actually hard to find time to write here
I finish my post on writing about election in torun
i really admired the culture
hard working oc without need to control and so much suport
ppl chatting dancing aiesec dances
one community
wooooooooooooooooow
quiet sure
i would really like to be in such lc even with less money
trully admire
and do not regret not being at global although it is believed to have been amazing!
of course not enough time to write
so will finish tomorrow or at least will try

life goes so fast:-)

so I was to write about IY etc but in the mean time OLA is oficially selected for NST TM in Poland
Congrats:-)
poor vp tm from the whole Poland will have to deal with you and you will have to deal with..;-)
dream duet with Gosiaczek
hehe Johny & Olek put high demands so girls you have to rock!

ajajaja;-)

So days running so fast
Invest Yourself already over
with lots of strange and crazy things happening there of course
and elections in LC Torun I was really impressed
hearing Betty and watching her
maybe it will be easie to quote my post from PD community made just after
I have just come back from election in Torun
where Beatka was selected for LCP!!!
I got really inspired by the way she wants her LC to look like
as one really living core work and values
it is sth so simple and so obvious but I realized how far actually we are to this stage
Now we still have around 3 months of our term we can do a lot or have the feeling that it is not our responsibility.
Thanks to Beata I realized that actually my priority is to leave my LC living Core Work and @ values in everyday life, not giving amazing tools and ppl not using them!
will comment more in a while:-)

in between

yeap
in between two teams and two realities
meeting with Bulgaria closer and closer
EXPRO together
MC chat cannot wait
cause its so hard to be so far from my beloved teammates especially having so many challenges here, every day!
u can see few more links btw
blogging is more and more popular:]
for the weekend Im at home bulding connection- visitng doctors checking what need to be prepared in order to go to BG without any concerns:D
list of questions is getting longer
some of them got answered!
:D
with support of MC abroad ziomki and Klimeczek I will manage
and ... EXPRO is not only about my new team!
its about entercee faci team!
its about DecNatCo and much more
its about Bulgarian MC team
and Ira
in 10 days my life will be totally in different mood
woooooooooooow!
Yes yes yes I do can feel it!
I do can :D

from for & cause of Ira

Actually I was the one writing much more but lately I neglected my blog
reading ur got motivated to be frequent
The world is round and the place which may seem like the end, may also be only the beginning.

yes Cebula is from Poland but Bulgaria soon...

If ur past doesnt satisfy u, forget it! Imagine new story of ur life and believe in it! this power will support u in achieving what u want!

wrap up etc

Actually I do not think I will find time for any wrap up
what happened on Thursday, Friday, weekend with my pace of life Im not sure whether I remember;-)
ok jokes
Thursday - waking up in the morning killing me
and then party by Magiel actually starnge ppl start parties so late... and others need to wake up in the morning
I didnt manage with marketing so I will have fridays free- hopefully:]
maybe its not such a bad option?;-)
and what happened on friday- papa party of klimeczke at Czarnys place
meeting with morswin after looooooooong break!really ql
and time with tomasz and laska:D:D:D
amazing!!!
totally different life
however with laska being in aiesec we were not able to avoid aiesec topics
still my sweetheart and crazy tomasz coming back to more idylic time
feeling as it would be good to have such tomasz
still it is something and sb and feeling i cannot fully sacrifice
so cannot take full advantage of this:/
eh contact with nicky is fluctuating and less frequent i actually do not mind
but there is one thing- when i think it was something disposable as a cup;-)
without any follow up he writes:/
strange
nevertheless weekend was ql of course diet stopped working- too much alcohol;-)
learning day of course too few people:(
and of course me dealing with billocation aaaaa
so more or less not relaxed after weekend but feeling great!
back with my thought to other priorities other way of life:]