28 a good day

bsides having my room
I also managed to have 2 hour meeting with Nadya- I see a lot of challanges happening to me here.
Why?
Cause things are not obvious...
pr obvious competelly upside down for me;-)
but ok, we will manage I hope we will!
As we did it in the LC
Ladies ang Gentleman the BEST HR MANAGEMENT AWARD 06/07 goes to LC Warszawa SGH:-)
Thank you all those who supported me in implementing all then changes, gave me power and challenged me!
Thank You!

my room

2nd working day in the office

So today is my second day in the office its still a little bit in a mess and its terrible hot:(
Maybe because of that I spend first minutes eating my breakfast- that I bought alone on my way here:
banitca and yoghurt.
Wonder how many natural yoghutrs I can eat daily and for how many days...
This is almost a week here.
I dunno whether time goes slow or fast?
Byt it goes, days are running;-)
Yesterday was a good day!
First, I get my room.
I like it- the bathroom is new and its for two people. The only and maybe big drawback that it's on the ground floor, so windows are nailed so its extremely hot, I plan to do sth about that but then I need to be carefull cause there are robberies in studentsky:(.
Studentsky grad is an area of Sofia with 20'000 inhabitants- that what I was told.
There are mainly students living there but not only.
There is lots of block of flats. Mine is supposed to be one of the best- for foreigners and good students- its located close to the shop--> Fanatastico, laundry- small washing in a bowl, big in laundry, fast foods, internet cafee, bus stop etc.
So its great:D
If ur curious how my room looks like here u are.
More pics when I unpack and have time to sightsee- I plan to get to know more places and places I need to know next week, cause during the weekend I will be on the seaside- together with Milen my VP LD- he invited me to his home town.
So Burgas here I come:-)
There will be no me online for weekend but for sure next week will be full of new experience that I will be willing to share:-)

First days

Ok done with long story of my life before- not its new chapter in my life. One year in Bulgaria…
So how did the first day look like.
I was picked up from the airport by Ivo and Steli they seemed shocked by the amount of my luggage- we went to leave it in Steli’s place cause I’m homeless for one week I changed myself and we went to the office for big cleaning- from cleaning in Ilawa through cleaning in Warsaw I ended up cleaning in Sofia;-) We arrived Steli’s place around 23 BG time- I repack myself for team days taking shower, wrote some mails, chatted with some people and went to sleep. When I woke up I didn’t feel anything special I simply woke up in Bulgaria, simply after first day, simply around 300 days left- days to challenge myself, prove myself, be a change I want to see in the world.
We went for planning team days in Melnik, 1st day was mostly about chilling out, getting to know, I got a book to collect stamps from visiting 100 hundred the most important monuments and I managed to get 2 stamps :D we spent time in the river, visited old winery and I already managed to buy one bottle, so from the first day I’m widening my collection.
I slept and in the morning… we started real work
Planning process, vision shaping- challenging like a hell but also bringing happiness:D
We were to go back wednesday early in the morning but we had some adventures, i think adventures will be with me here frequently

last days in PL

General Assembly with the vote of discharge- the whole day i focused of parking myself, trying to sleep after the party, not really preparing my speech presentation or sth. I really approached this GA without any stress etc- maybe cause in my opinion people who voted saw year of my work, know me and I didn’t say anything just at the end to gain their voices. GA was hard- especially for me- on the one hand personality of the term, on another fighter- especially with ltt. But when I saw presentation of the EB 07/08- seeing ideas, things they will do- they took from us, they continued im proud, I just doubt about spring recruitment but this is their term.
Questions speeches- eh basically nothing special for me- but of course I cried:/
Don’t ask me
Sometimes I’m really strange- so I was standing in front of the people and cried:] just for bye bye;-)
But basically the point of the day was the last party of 06/07- I spoke with people I admire, I like etc- Klimeczek, Niewozewa. I also spent some time with my daughter;-)- Kupando and of course Przemo who came there :D
I really like him cause he understands me and I understand him;-)
We have also visit of Alumni that’s why we didn’t have so many coupons for beer, but still till the time we leave it was enough;-)
I didn’t dance at all so it was a good party;-)
Afterwards we had afterparty and I went home home home in Ilawa.
Barbecue with family and some precious time just to get ready to go and killing myself in order to pack:]
Of course that’s not the end of my crazy adventures
On Wednesday I had two more exams and before that we were supposed to have paintball game EB versus EB- unfortunately it didn’t happen so I went to Marki for bye bye barbeque and it was a smart choice- it gave me some thought- I will miss some stuff in PL and of course some people. Wish had to know them earlier!
I also realized that there are some things in AIESEC that I really like and are driving me, but there is also a lot I don’t like and cannot accept, also in AIESEC Poland.
In general it was not so smart idea to go there- cause I came back to Warsaw, straight for exams and didn’t manage to clean up the flat etc:/
And I went to Gdansk to say bye to my family. Now looking from Bulgarian perspective I wish I had spent more time with my family and friends and people I care.
On Thursday I went for a walk with my grandmum – I visited my old places it turned out there were some competitions- only then did I get to know that’s Europe its not Olympics class anymore, that’s why there were only Laser boats and girls sailing that and new class 405. Walk was really nice and brought some memories. Eh I realized my sailing past is really reminding of itself but also two years of my life really marked the rest of my life:]. Still not able to assess whether its positive or negative impact.
Coming back on Thursday meant only two more nights and two days at home- packing was disaster- t turned out I had 20kilo overbaggage:/ but I survived, spent some time with grandparents too and Saturday evening together with my mum went to Warsaw.
Before that on Friday evening I had virtual papa party watching my poznan friendship triangle- lachonek with husband and pysia:D
I was to clean up and pack but due to nice surprise- my eb in kaukaska I didn’t manage.
My EB make me surprise- we stayed for the last time in ola’s room, chatted about the term, had fun and then I only managed to get things in the kitchen and went sleeping.
This was strange night…
Morning before leaving was nightmare - some clothes still wet, problems with hangers and amount of baggage madness and… my eb with stezal on the airport. I really didn’t expect that and of course was crying- sometimes I think the decision about one year abroad, one year in Bulgaria was the best for me, still it was in order to challenge myself as much as possible- Am I masochist?
Still I cried, I realized I will miss my family, my eb, my lc, my friends- still was time to go so with overbaggage checked in polish flag from my eb on my shoulders and after somephonecalls to family I flied away;-)

for those impatient;-)

im alive;-)
Im still on the way back from TD- in the internet caffee using blogger and other programs in cyrylic;-)
I will describe everything today night or tomorrow depending what time I'm back.
To be honest i didnt have time to miss u but ur more than welcome here!

life is not so easy:P

basically papa party and vote of trust were also connected with some bad moments:P
I know alcohol changes people but only then on 15ht I realized how big its influence can be and how dangerous it is:(
Unfortunatelly I'm a little bit lost in that case, or maybe not lost but not feelin in position to state my opinion:/ strrrrange
since is already 24:00 in bg and tomorrow i need to wake up around 6 which is 5 poslih time im going to bad
story of GA surprise by EB and first day in BG will share with us after TD
love;-)

so im here

Im in Sofia- adventure has begun!
but I need to finish what I was supposed to especially that last days in PL were just amazing...
I was singing Ania Dabrowska with Radzio in the office
since actually it was almost only two ebs in the office
On Friday 15 we ate last Pizza dominium - as in old times;-)
and this day was special also due to my papa party- maybe not so many people, maybe i was not so present since- till the very latest moment due to exams, packing etc i was filling in tmu application
maybe...
but probably it was the best papa party ever, they best sb can gave for me
and with the best people
probaby because of that i went to bed at 6 although the next day we had our GA
and probably because my super duper Klimeczek was also at the party
and gave me tea so i was equipped to go to sofia.
I really got nice small gifts- sweet postcards and pillow with book and flowers, people can really suprise in the nice way!!!

I'm not cheap at all

hm what did u think about after reaidng this heading:P?
im not cheap as all children until im 25 and im fully independent my parents will have spent around 100'000 EUR on me!!!
Someitmes when I'm reading newsweek i think its typical tabloid only a little bit different from these cheap newspaper- there is not much about politics but shoking articles about society- probably thats what we need
or maybe they try to draw our attention to sth?
neverthelles this is huuuuuuuuuuuuge amount of money:/
I feel strange
am I worth it?
are all children worth such spendings?
will we pay it back to the society, to our parents, grandparents?:/

Poland versus Bulgaria

just before going to my new home for year- Bulgaria I'm going to watch game in volleyball between our countries hmmm
who am i supporting then;-)?
Polska bialo -czerwoni or...?
what is the shout for BG team?
eh volleyball game- during the decnatco it also took place and Poland won- as me my selections;-)
but I hope my win was win - win solution:P
:]

time for reading

Finally i found some time for reading:D
yeah probably i do not want to read anything connected with politics cause Im scared, nevertheless...
I recommend u article about gender of brain in 25/2007 newsweek:D
polish edition only im afraid
hugs!

randomness

I hate cleaning
I also hate packing
how to put everything i need
how to decide what i need?
this is definitely to hard so
break and reading newspapers:P
do u know that at the beginning everyone has female brain- just later on if u have luck or bad luck:P u can become a man:]
health insurance so called european card of health insurance... do u know its a really shitty plastic card?
without any picture, looking really not professional and its valid for me only till 31.10.2007 cause only till then my students card is valid god
more and more reasons to come to poland in november? is it stupid rules or sth wrong with me?:/

time to say goodbye!

during long weekend I stayed at home it was my bye bye time
I met with old friends basically with LAska and Ola had some chats.
Some people will never change?
i think thats true
or maybe no matter what their personal treats are, how they develop ur relation has such strong roots that u simply interact well even if u havent seen each other for ages!
I will miss them both, especially laska of course.
This is the person that for sure changed a lot, or maybe revealed what she used to hide inside?
Probably this is also the only person among my friends who is not single and its happy, maybe together with nicky but this another story im not up-to-date with
So Lachonek is with Tomasz and she is happy, she plans to get married have children become housewife.
Sth which is extremely rare nowadays:]
Maybe because she was courage enough to admit it?
after talks with friends I see everybody is seeking for that, people do not want to wait until 30 to have somebody they can rely on and be happy with but there is one big BUT.
We are all afraid that we will lose our freedom- everything is because of that...
and what is this freedom about?

all we are its dust in the wind?

dunno
nevertheless i need to leave my rooms- both in ilawa and in warsaw in order
so today im cleaning
during 22 years of life i managed to collect some stuff - still im not able to say goodbye to them
they will be waiting in my room here and im leaving
just in two days
my new life begins
so many things- i promised to myself describe all from the past- life in warsaw before going so today its update day;-)

from birthday till voe of discharge

this period was mainly focused on studies but as person reluctant to read borring stuff i also lost some time on thinking;-)
went home frequently- every free time spent there
some parties
summing up the term but to be frank without any deep reflections and i didnt pay much attention to preparation to vote of discharge neither get stressed about it.
in the moment of writing it im after all exams- still waiting for results of two
the results of rest are more than satisfactory:D:D
i managed to pass german too, managed to take out my next year in warsaw back home- almost all things are taken to ilawa and the room is not mine anymore- eh room in bg wont be the same but
this is my challenge e.g. sharing the room first time in my life for longer than two weeks
i even managed not to have to many adventures with the exams- only micro was famous;-)
but im a little bit tired with the amount of exams and time spent in two terms it would be good to have some holiday;-)
longe weekend 7-11 was as time in home- lazy, with first swimming in the lake, with family grills with parents, uncle granparents and my cousine, of course without learning but this is so obcious in my case:/ eh
and before that on 6th big Bun's birthday part by Agatka!
This was for sure biiiiig party and I hadnt partied so hard for a long time before that.
Thats why im happy that i stayed and went there- though i left home in warsaw in the moment i was to leave train in ilaw a
drinks, friends and good music- u do not need more to be happy
even too happy;-)

pictures from atom

birthday refelction

so as I mentioned birthday was time of reflection
so first of all reflection on my past I think I laready gave a glimple on that
i just focused on things i changed in me and im porud of still there are some really fedding me up
I think that going to BG is a good idea and choice in order to change them and improve myself
I also analyzed the term- now after vote of discharge its funny to write it but still
I see mistakes in the term, I'm not fully sadisfied but I'm proud and when I see new EB when I see their plans Um even prouder- we started new era of this LC im sure!
regarding plans for 2007- all got smashed
terrible but ok - that was my big mistake so i just set new- half-year resolution with new plans and priorities.
With amazing people around me, with music of ania dabrowska in my head and nice movie evening i liked this birthday
This was a new beginning- with agreeing on some of my features- simple u cannot reshape urself totally and fight against nature
with setting new goals and plans
with summarizing my life and coming to quiet ok conclusions
all who contributed to this day but also to this 22 years!
thank u
it was worth!
it was great!
its hard to give this mood back after three wees but I had the feeling and still fell this that sth changed in me
that i begun new era of myself too

birthday

05.06 of june was my birthday
it was one of the best birthday or maybe the best ever!
the whole day began on 4th- when I got first greetings from my hongkongczak Sandy!!!
later on i got greetings from the whole why not team and friends
but there were also some nce surprises- cd from Owoc and now im addicted to ania dabrowska.
Later on cinema with qspit :D oceans 13 a good idea for break in my long study focused week with 6 exams bleee
And a great book- clues for clueless people - in one moment i reminded myself of lesson with piwko- with 13 aiesecers out of 20 participants.
And the whole comis about dilbert- if u do not know it and u do not read it regularily i really wonder why- this is so facking crazy and funny way of presenting reality!
probbaly this was not very smart of me cause on the next day I had 2 exams but I managed and at least get relaxed
it was also day of self refelction on my year and life
firstly about the term which was almost finishing
then about the year 2007 realization of the plan and setting goals for the second part of it
and also summarizing the past
the effects- impressive
but now im going to sleep i need to sleep after two crazy parties:D

fetal medicine

how a person dealing with internal me can be called like that
fetal brrr seems like fatal or bleh bleh
no comments

its over now?, not this is beginning

The world is round and the place which may seem like the end, may also be only the beginning
This is the end of my term as EB I'm not VP PD @SGH anymore
but I'm VP TM @ in Bulgaria:D
Today im at my hometown having some time so for sure i will updateu on the last month

Amazing Legionowo time

Thursday is a good day;-)
I managed to pass international relations - crazy exam of my life - and this presentation for German and PM last PM i had this pleasure;-) participating in- we got one whole term award- role model promotion I'm so happy and proud especially taking into account our submitting the applications- crazy time in the office and than at kredytowa with one internet:]
But our efferts brought at least one success- still waiting for the best hr:/
and then we moved to legionowo- ah I would forget PM was nice probably because of chats with some friendly crazy people:] and eating chinczyk after such a long time these dishes are soooo big!
Legionowo time was relaxing and hm...;-)amazing discussions about first school visits of.. our parents and the others;-)
And Friday- ordinary people went to work and we went sailing- dunno what are the impressions of our EB- but Dominiq managed to be a captain for a while Zmijusek was sea sick no idea of men impressions
but for me it was great come back to my roots. I love this time- silence water and me time for reflection time to admire the nature- its power but the time so rarely and preserved nature unfortunatelly too:(
Still I undoubtedly have to make papers!!!
Time at home eh Ilawa- strange thoughts, strange feelings hard to describe that and break in contact with Nicky as it turned out again for long- after this intensive time- sth undoubtedly I need to rearrange this in my life:/

last EB days

Ok because of so many things happening im not very chronological but...
We have had some EB life, too.
On 21 of May we went to the 2nd and last common eating in Jeffs it was very hot but the atmosphere as always nice especially with some drinks! Of course party had to finish at Kaukaska- our home is famous eh not my home anymore but its not for now;-)
We wanted to drink in the best place for that- playground for children but i turned out we live in a fancy surrounding... and there is security so we edned up in sweet room of zmijusek. I was tired so I went to bed early and Dominika joined me - I love our EB mixing sleeping couples;-) and the guys stayed a little bit longer- they even managed to record the best movie of the term with zuzanka playing main role.. bezduszna:D.
It was nice week in general- finally we finalized wine with PRzemo- sitting on the banch, on the fresh air drinking nice Varna:-)chatting about the important stuff;-)
life-changing eXPerience, previous posts were somehow results of these chats about life.
What's love? not able to give you definition but about one thing I'm sure:D
I will not be in unhappy relation and in this term I became very egoistic

my theme for june

sorry that it's in polish but this is me in june
actually this is only on of the songs from amazing CD I got... but this is beloved:D
Discovering anew world of music! I missed it!
Wiem, że jestem jedną z tych, co nie boją się żyć.
Gdy dzień zmienia się w ciemna noc,
Ńie przestraszy mnie nic.
Wiem, że lubię sama być,
Trwonić tak cenny czas.
Choć nic się nie dzieje
To dobrze mi jest z tym...

I trudno mi się przyznać że to wszystko nagle traci sens, gdy Ciebie nie ma.
Na głos nie wypowiem że tęskniłam gdy nie było Cię,
trochę za długo...
I trudno mi się przyznać że to wszystko nagle traci sens, gdy Ciebie nie ma.
Na głos nie wypowiem że tęskniłam gdy nie było Cię,
trochę za długo...

Wiem, że rade sobie dam, nie potrzebny mi nikt.
Nie musze tłumaczyć się, że znów nie robię nic.
Wiem, że mogę sobie żyć jakby nie istniał świat.
Wiem też, że dla Ciebie to oddałabym....

I trudno mi się przyznać
że to wszystko nagle traci sens,
gdy Ciebie nie ma.
Na głos nie wypowiem
że tęskniłam gdy nie było Cię,
trochę za długo...
I trudno mi się przyznać
że to wszystko nagle traci sens,
gdy Ciebie nie ma.
Na głos nie wypowiem że tęskniłam gdy nie było Cię,
trochę za długo...
I trudno mi się przyznać
że to wszystko nagle traci sens,
gdy Ciebie nie ma.
Na głos nie wypowiem że tęskniłam
gdy nie było Cię, trochę za długo...

from CEPS to ATOM

Very crazy time
Conference preparation- the last one time to hand over responsibilities but on another beeing responsible like hell and starting to learn how to rest:] and much time with...Nicky
This was really a weekend of refelctions.
Adas came to the conference, do not know what his impressions were:/
Adas will u share:]?
Of course -- hehe yes of course- lots of mails with Nicky I'm completely lost what is this game about cause now when I'm writing this we havent spoken for 10 days so far missing my birthday:/
I feel like this is a game I'm not willing to play but I'm too to deny and reject it:(
Ok but coming back to ATOM - from my point of view- in these term always complaining:P
To few people came:(, amazing that inters came and thanks to Asia's efforst Jana even ran a session.
Level of our LC, from my impression, especially after AIESEC Way and coaching sesssion- keeping fingers crossed for the next term cause I see here huge potenatial.
Dream session- ok, probably didn't manage this unique atmosphere of refelction, but I also had a feeling people were not expecting it? Of course I was crying...
with Radzio. Life is soooostrange- we were the only crying and dominiq left sugars asap:/
Personality of the term- big success or big failure?
I was chosen but only 40 people out of aour 120:/voted
the last day with a small hangover saying buy to the LC at last local conference and conference in PL in the same time, no idea for how long:/
A good conference- finally I was not so stressed, not having so many things to do but also so many doubts, worries about the future- my future but most of all future of the LC
:*

CEPS

CEPS conference was something really interesting, challenging in terms of preparation, delivery- competitionas, talks etc instead of simple telling, much shorter structure, less delegates, closer relation more cousy atmosphere, I learnt how to work in small groups- really useful and really something new:-)
I also managed to come to Cracow and Kielcowo old good Kielcowo;-)
CEPS itself I spent a little bit too much time on talking with Nicky:/ small argument feeling back old times- SMS written, horrible feeling but afterwards everything went ok?
Still time spent on chat was sth really hm too long too intensive, I wonder what is going in my life:]? Is somebody taking control of it instead of me?:/
Some old feelind emotions:]
Just came up with the question what I learn what was the roI of it:]?
I'm sure I wont stuck in a bad relation but will I build any?
yeye probably from post from CEPS u expected more?
sorry sb just interfered in the process

almost three weeks day by day

Wednesday was the last day of my studying for more than one year. I felt even more that my life is changing. Before writing here I went through my friends' bliogs to see what is going yeap- new term in the air, list of those I want to read is changing- some people are coming back after one year abroad eXPerience, some are starting as me.
Not writing here for three months is something I'm really ashamed of and promise it wont happen again.
Regarding ITC and PlanCo there is for sure more I can write but probably now it will be hard for me to find time, especially so many things going around me so if u feel like willing to know mroe just ask me!
in the mean time I wrote here my things to do connected with school- now 2 weeks before going I managed with majority of them but still
final exams in languages, international finance essay plus exam by Mr Balcerowicz;-)to go
and waiting for results of some more- and horror with microeconimics.
Nevertheless during the process I had doubts whether I will manage with all the exams, tests, essays
with some complications e.g. presentation in German- thinking of not going there- completelly stressed and having two exams a day I went through it
Thursday 17th so not long after coming back from bg;-) just with small drop by at home I went for Facipremeeting of CEPS and conference itself
how was it - see next post

swimming

yeap the history is like a circle some time ago i posted about my swimming with boya so today was the first swimming this year also with boya;-) I love water I love swimming and sailing amazing time for reflection so I decided to post cause I havent been here for ages