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Second day as I mentioned was amongst new MC team, we plan our image priorities planning conference, it was challenging some moments but I got really passionate and enthusiastic  I really believe we will make a difference, team building is in place and with every moment Im learning sth about me and I see place for improvements etc.
In the evening we went with ivo- shor walk around the town Sofia is getting closer to my heart, night come back home was not bas although I felt a little bit scarry but it worked, still wondering where to stay – probably I will end up in the dormitory it has its pros and cons now Im a little bit lost in where I really want to live?:/
Town- close you can walk around, sightsee a lot, be flexible
Students town- cheaper, opportunity to interact with more people:/
Any suggestions- klimkowa im following ur dilemnas;-)
If I do not have anybody to live with the choice will be simple I think:/. If one of my priorities for this year is to be challenged besides, then why not?
Although I cam back later- around 24 I had power to work so I prepare some more materials to my sessions and action steps cause everyday Im supposed to do a lot actually and I do not want to postpone anything or not do it! I feel more and more comfortbale in Ira’s place;-) but so it’s a good sign I think cause in one motnh this will be my place for around 11 months- I mean Bulgaria flat is not specified as u see above;-)
Some more challenges I have besides lights going so fast into red that I do not know when it will happen and when I will have to run cross the street are connected with style of working and style of living- although its Europe, EU now its different but Im happy about that Im getting what I wanted the point is to learn how to capitalize on that

Today was the day of interviews for NST and transition with Geri
I cannot wait to start working with my VP TMs and NST still feeling this great responsibilty for selection and sb's development- powerful but also challenging feeling
it was really nice to walk and chat with geri another culture seeming to close to polish and that im falling in love with indian culture
sometimes im asking the question to myslef whethe one place for the whole year is int it too hm stabel for me???
so we will see how it will be with the future some plans are in my head soem for sure will show up later on
We had amazing time with Geri a little bit international perspectives on Bulagaria- ) size girls versus all sizes girls but also challegning ourselves because of differencies between india and poland
and now im back at iras place having some preparation for the conference which is closer and closer so
itc wrap up maybe during break!
best greets!

Im in Bulgaria:D

So I’m second day in Bulgaria
Without having my place to stay I still do not feel as I’m home, but Im doing my best to be active observing, remembering the stuff
From the not important: they do not have mc flurry with lion – point for saving and loosing weight;-) of course lack of tea but I have already brought some boxes so its not so bad and of course I will use the fact of IC I hope
Besides that traffic lights- they changed from green to red so unexpected at least for me:]
People are friendly, still walking around not understanding what they are saying make me feel Im stuck in my personal prison:/? Or personal space. It’s a pity that Ira left home so Im exploring Sofia alone, but on the other hand I can adapt Sofia and me to Sofia on my own and feeling here at home.


2nd day of MC works-really exausting- around11hours in the office with break for lunch, head blooming but osme initiative for the next year done actually cannot wait mc planning really:D putting my initatives in action steps and making them time bounded its amazing feeling. Really completely different from my last year EB approach! Also lots of challenging questions thinking about my role, the best way of achieving results and these aims, and realizing that the first test is coming! I went back home – Ira’s place around 22 it was a little bit scarry to go alone in the dark neighbourhood not knowing the language but I managed and actually was so tired that I fall asleep around 23 just answered all the mails I have and did only the most urgent stuff! And today is this 2nd day- only with our elect MC team- SWOT analyses, current state assessment, team building- rules, image, priorities for the term. Really nice time- full of inspiration, head full of ideas. WE had really inspiring time and we are getting along better, still language is somehow a problem not know how it will be but maybe it will contribute to my learning- increased self-confidence and taking care of myself.We ate kebab- of course with chips inside- feeling mace in the air;-) thanks to CEED it was not shocking for me, and we ate some ice-cream. I know better and better surrounding of the MC office. And feel more and more comfortale in Sofia- today made my first shopping- not understanding nothing except the price, but I didn’t get lost on my way. I saw some kind of celebration some kind of march of people dressed, dunno what was it about but Sofia is welcoming me from the first day;-).
more as well as wrap up of itc tommorrow cause now i need to sleep !
hugs!

long weekend

So we have long weekend now!
I still owe u some more stories from itc and i promise to write it tommorw today im dying im really tired and going to sleep
but im in bulgaria- my country for a year it so hm strange i think:]

:-)

I still have sth to share about itc and of course my trip to bg cause at always i have adventure but right now im going to bed im at iras place and is so nice :-)
but this bastard is going to budapest for my term- life, the more challenges, the funnier

?

I wish we hadnt broken?/ I wish it didnt end that way?:/
- why? it was really useful experience, it taught me a lot
- so why are u stil alone?
- i'm going abroad for one year and dunno what later, i want to develop myself i want me to feel good be free and live i do not want anybody to limit me!
- and if it were me
- you would be different i believe
- nooo im so jealous, do not u remember it was our main reason of arguments

why here? why i mentioned this
dunno still, jealous- such a destructive feeling, but so wide spreaded...

emtions, love so difficult to keep in norms and logical world

and me and i in the center of universe

yes, closed in my circle of influence?
with the glass walls

ITC:-)

Short time in office ane we are now in dormitory, heading for bed, earlier, because there is no net- wrote this post offline and because yesterday I stayed long and cause tomorrow we start! ITC my dream came true and im here to make the best use of this time!
So ITC 2007 lets start this chapter of my book- Global from the beginning not so impressive especially from the organizational side- travelling around the town, missing some ideas that proved to be successful during other events run by our organization; the question is what about knowledge management in our organization:/
But what happened next as truly impressive- just to say that I danced tunak tunak- twice and those who know me are aware I hate it.
And Polish delegation really proud of us shouts, spirit roll call on the stage screaming shouts fight against Slovakia and… Poles on the stage in first rows during @ dances- dancing Lele in Rumunia- more Poles than Romanian in first rows and we have new shout or maybe finally shout of Poland;-)- AIESEC Poland red& white, white & red always partying till we dead!!!
Besides that lot of friends- people from CEEMOS 2006, You Can! 2006, EXPRO long evenings and meal chats for sure
Official ceremony not very exciting but somehow better than you can/itc, maybe cause I didn’t fall asleep. No gn shouts, but speech of Gabitza was rally moving and somehow make me closer to move forward, to move further, to mena/to more than bulgaria. And we arrived to the venue really picturesque surrouding lots of hostels but at this time of the season a little bit dead, 4 stars hotel but hm- a little bit cold in the room, luckily our clima was switched on for the higher temperature but still. Room allocation- this was something really funny… we stay together with Ola- Kaukaska even in Romania:] isnt it ironic;-)?
We decorated our room with polish flag and our names and I realy felt we enjoy participation, German movie with more sexual positions than teaching us german, hunting for sth to drink and we slep- till the very morning, with my head full of emotions, full of happiness that I’m hear and of course full of ideas, pland but also fears regarding the future////

Day by day in Romania- in the morning it turned out to be a little bit freezing with shortage of tea and warm water- definitely I start to take tea with me whenever I go! It’s impossible for my stomach:]. No water in the pool, water in the sea rather cold, temperature outside also not so impressive but we will see, maybe short swimming;-). Beach… with lots lots lots of shells actually its neither sandy nor stony one but full of shells. Maybe its due to the season and of course these are not those super duper shells but its really nice and clear. Walk there is sth I’m really hapy about. Since plenary and eating sleeping building are not the one we have time for walking and refelcting – ideal!!!
Morning pleanry, first sessions, yeap we really change- dipping in yourself – more expro like conference than delivering knowledge, but its only the first content day and I think we really need it cause to ofthen we get down to work without knowig who we are, what we can contribute to etc.
Meals not so special, coke, chips, lack of warm drinks- only coffee or maybe I’m getting older?:/
Sessions just amazing, even if some moment not perfect, till some extend maybe not in place they do influence me and that is what counts!:-)
Party – till 6 am aaaaa- crazole;-)
Internet started work also so sth lost- alienation from other duties, but on the other hand cannot isolate so much since duties duties duties:P
Beach and sun niiiiice – short survival game- to move our old stuck to laptops asses- really good idea!
Next session not so moving- more repetitio of known knowledge- maybe cause Im not so fit to the profile:/
But atmosphere here is so great- with shouts, dances, friendly and somehow cousy :D.
Lots of fun with Polish delegation too, only from time to time disturbed by local close to earth in warsaw etc problems:/
Instead of party-sleeping, loosing party but getting myself in place and much better:]

For Klimeczek to plan holiday;-)

Dear AIESEC members and future IC delegates,

the dates of the 59th AIESEC International Congress are 21st - 30th of August 2007!

We welcome you to Istanbul in August this year!

Loooove:]

ITC update:-)

So after easter of course there was a lot things to clarify as i already wrote going to itc was mainly about bad luck but im here
Didn’t see a lot from bucharest so far, focused on school stuff, ending work on ceeds and had short chat with ivo cause is here 
Trying and starting to be happy about but its not so easy due to money problems
I feel unsafety and uncertain and this spoils my mood my planning process and efficiency I need to clarify some things really really:/
But on the other hand it’s a challenge for me, my personality, my weak points actually.
Bucharest as always didn’t much so far
So much travelling during this term but hm did I use the time in the best way?
Or maybe this pursuit is sth crazy? To get more, to be more efficient?
Sometimes im lost
Eh romania- completelly different from bulgaria I didn’t realize that differences will be so huge woooow
Is Bulgaria able to be cloes to Romanian example? Dunno, hopefully yes.
Then – some stange things- traffic lights with counter- you see for how many minutes you can still cross the street.

Whats going on besides that?
Hard to say- debts
Going to sell my mobile anyone? Nokia 6822
But managed to buy modem only for 150PLN
Still feeling so unsecure about my psychical needs in BG ans its slowly becoming more and more difficult to wait to see etc
Hm challenging my charater challenging myself wasn’t that what I expected the most from this year and why I decided to change environment completely?
Coming back to challenges in Romania
Besides lights with counter another one- possibility to buy beer in McDonalds:] and the fact that u can enter part of the train station with waiting room etc only with ticket or paying half a lay- around 0,6PLN:]
Day itself just a little bit crazy- morning trip to the office, then amazing time in the village museum nice time for relaxing and getting some fresh air, uniqe- nice place so close to the city center, with flowers, artificial lake, old houses it was really nice to walk around, watch not to think about anything, not to think about problems.
Just sometimes wondering why there is no such places in Poland why we have such a culture that people woukd undoubtedly devastate such park, cut flowers etc:/?
Then office and some work- but with problems blogger not working – that’s why update its so late but also problems with @net:/ some stops :/
For the end meeting with Ivo:] and walking around to see parlament, yeah impressive and huuuuuuge fast walk around the town, so many nice places, well preserved buildings not destroyed but comunism and its way of creating buildings!
Really funny walk in crazy path but getting to know bucharest- my lonely exploring, me and the space, me and my body, me and my environment me me me
And finally only bucharest- new place, different with foot killing me but not taking care of them, just go:D

:]

1...2...3...trial

ITC

from ITC

the most impressive moment of today- Radzio's blog
thank u for ur writing but why I'm not a star of it;-)
only Klimeczek is worse
God I so agree with u
I hate but I love I cannot..;-)
hug!:*

EASTER

Going home for Easter after LCP meeting - full of passion and thoughts about my decisions
after EXPRO time of self refletcion seemed really hard and I was not bale to wait
I just wanted to go home so much!
Then there was presidents meeting Ola got acclammation but the whole situtation during PM
division into groups, voting process made me more secure about my decision and further path cause I felt completely not in place and realized being LCP is not about LCP meeting but more about PM and Im completely not suitable for that:/
SO happy about future relaxed I went home
but it turned out life is not so ideal I felt so not in place, Warsaw, AIESEC, trips changed me
changed me so I became a different person and it was hard and challaneging to stay at home to accept my family with so changed attitudes.
Still I survived;-) it was even nice, with uncle and ola playing games- won in monopol at least there i was rich;-)
meeting with my high school class:Dreally great time and going to warsaw to feel at my place to feel independent but still dependant on my family - paying money for expenses supporting in troubles:/
transition without wow \
just ok:-)
after EASTER coming back to reality
my crazy reality:D
soon more!

transition

Transition started just before EASTER with my firs individual meeting with Linda but I will desribe this later on in post about Easter?
but we are also after first EB 2 EB meeting
waiting for feedback from new EB but hope they will use it
It is so different from last year actually!
with this AIESEC explanation and introduction
in such moments Im really proud of this term and the canges that happened!
Im happy about our work and hope it will be continued:-)
Still would be ql to get some feedback:]
And I finally managed to meet with Klisiewka after 2 or 3 months:-)
will we shape new structure?:-)

spring is in the air

this is spring
its getting warmer
the term is getting to end
exams are closer
my departure is closer:/
So im packing im living in bags acutally
Tue-TO just from the train
Fri-Sat biu
Sat- Mon ITC <15-23.04>
Fri- Monday <27.04-07.05>
aaaa
but I managed to find time for a walk nice walk through Warsaw
first soprano Ice Cream
two hours of fresh air in my Warsaw
yes I feel this is my Warsaw
I will damm miss it:/:(

bad luck?

I started to wonder whether I was really to come to ITC
starting from the money- lack of it
then going through lack of my card
finally problems with transport to the airport till the fact of loosing camera in the plane- but getting it back
so actually i feel so strange about this
not so happy and passionate eventhough my dream came true but rather not secure?
straneg
but believe the conference will rock:-)
cannot wait to see delegates, faci meet ivo and get back on positive track!

school

going on the better way?
german - 21/30
microeconomics - 4
yes at least sth:D
jupi!!!

money

small reflection
money & travelling
I counted how much I spent on travels during my AIESEC career and hm its a big amount of money:/
Actually there was a post on aiesec.net whether u consider aiesec expensive
so my aiesec trips:
everything started with DeCNatCo last year - actually the fact that I was working made me consider this
so it was 900 PLN for flight and around 200 for the expenses (1EUR=4PLN)
and after that I quitted job I stayed in AIESEC went for EB and now decided to stay longer!
its crazy?
its naive?
dunno but I appreciate it so much and hope it will be my decision when I will leave, when I will be ready, not my external environment will decide
and coming back to travels
CEED in Maceodonia around 2000PLN
EnterCEE around 500PLN
DecNatCo around 1100
EXPRO around 1100
ITC - around 1000
PlanCo around 900 and its only for travelling and accommodation, living so no fees included
a loooot
was it always worth it?
I do not have doubts
actually what is money?
what decides about values if not the experience we live thanx to them?

:)(:

internet addiction- no this post is not about me, but about the whole society...
getting off the train in ilawa- 3compartments, 10people, 4 laptops
what a society:-)
day by day my crazy life is better and better.
Actually Im living according to slogan impossible is nothing and live as it was the last day of your life.
Still in the EXPRO mood- it was so amazing life-changing eXPerience!
and of course preparing for my future!

Spring is in the air

with spring- new attitudes, new ideas of course revolutonary starting from today changing everything so is the nature of human beings, nevertheless my revolution already started with decision about Bulgaria, so now is time to adjust the every single piece of me;-).
1 2 3
there will be no bing bang still starting from lcm trying to work on some things!
the picture above- my badges from the right those before @ then 2004, 2005, 2006 and 2007 of course
not all of them are there missing AutCo and from some projects I was support or participant or whatsoever;-)
one step back
why- probably after events from this week-
come back from expro really hard to switch on the one hand just survivying till easter, on the other successor, transition, school preparation- just me;-)
no time to rest, even without internet- offline work or sleep- yeah I admit to myself I need it and sleepless night - trying to make them only marginal part of me.
Of course going out- monday for Edo just from the plane;-)
Tuesday short visit in 70s- DK
Wed Equi of course, ceeders and expro sharing eh so ql to know i can pay it further at least part
Thursday at Dominika's place and Friday crazy trip to olsztyn
to give interview together with my mum better known as bozena!!!
I really realized im so proud of her!
sooooooooooooo much!
and that she is undoubtedly the best mum on the world!
Thank u for teaching me all values and attitudes maybe not so popular now but so human like!
Thank u for spoiling me
for giving me a chance to burn myself in life but always waiting with open arms!
and congruts for keeping being honest with urself!
always
so damm hard nowadays!
my mum - with all her drawbacks and behavours i hate, i cannot stand is person I admire!
cannot wait to see effect of our interview and pictures- it will be so crazy - they made me make up for this for one hour!
and what after olsztyn?- going to lcpe meeting:D