...

was it really worth it?
was this year worth it???
how bad u have to be to hear that one year of ur work is a big disaster
...

life is life...

to learn or to learn more effectively it is crucial to learn conscious so let's check what I have ;earnt lately, what I've been doing:-)
Monday - need to be self confident and self resistant. In school from 8:00 till 21 and sth...
First lectures- German passed and I hope to learn as much as posible- yeah promised this to myself earlier, too but.:/ this is the last term before one year break in my studies so and in fact these things are really useful. New opportunities - workshops with ppl not from AIESEC - cooperation with strangers seems challenging & interesting. tuesday from 9.50 till.. next day:]
Exam passed but giving me a kick off about my bad attitude. My self efficiency and mood are too often spoilt by my attitude:(. EBM after a long break- the most important in the team is heading in the same direction and understanding of its role as well as having common goals- so brilliatn in its simplicity.
Night- drinking with Klimeczek- private lesson - so obvious to me but too hard to keep it!:( PAI chosen Gabitza with Jarda so close

party vol2

more pictures

Czarny- papa Party Klimeczke pictures
comments in the evening!

pictures

long time..;-)
so enjoy
Bal by Magiel & Tomasz i Laska by me

my week

simply crazy and challenging
IY planning:]
Tomasz & Laska in tha house
crazy trip with Morswin
Klimeczek bye bye:(
attending classes
trying to study
working out my future
setting plans
work in LC
inspiring talks
eh actually almost everyday planned till 16.06:/
is it worth it?

new term

new term really busy:/
lots of subjects, meetings, work. preparation for next step
papa party
- schedule busy till next thursday
but ok nice things- yesterday papa meeting with Klimeczek
soon there will be brand new link her to the Klimeczek's blog
live from London
eh so many changes...
then Bal by Magiel
then tomasz, Lachon and my mum
LTTM, GA
in school from the very morning till the very night
getting up early going to sleep earlier as well
less time in front of notebook
studying - strange feeling but will be so uniqe then for the whole year that I really want to study now;-)
and want to change my life so I started- diet:]
3 days - so prooud of my stron will
maybe will manage to get some exercises during the weekend
eh and from @ life- we have new PAI - Gabitza:]
now time to see what the future brings but also shape the future

virtual friendships

hm summing up in how many crazy internet societies Im in
grono
plus
linkedin
orkut
golendline
nadchodzi4
hi5
tag or sth dunno
wayn
birthday alarm:]
iant this crazy????
i wonder how ppl find time for posting there commenting etc?
or maybe its because i spend much more time in one society?
@net?
eh checking all this except from @ net once daily would take me one ohur for sure
crazy:]

borring life

so borring life was about peace
crazy time- 3men staying in our flat
in the mean time adas visiting me;-)
fighting against school not very successful, revealing weak points of my character:(
PEACE parties and long talks
weekend at home
time in tricity
meeting tomek and painting curling track:D
meeting @ gdansk
sauna, aquapark, cinema, shopping
realizing once again how naive iam often and misinterpret others' behaviours:/
but probably realizing it is the first step towards changes?

:]

how many times in my life have i promised to myself that
- this is the last time
- that i wont do this again
- that i will change sth in me, sth in my behaviour
maybe i needed this feeling thats this is the last moment
so i have this feeling this is high time for changes
in me
in my environment
for the moment i know that there will be two biggest difficulties
of course shaping myself
and breaking some toxic relations
or maybe its almost the same?
neverthelles ts better to suffer for few months than through the whole life:/
yeap?

always postponing update in time
hmmm
i watched swiadek koronny today
again polish movie
hm they are not brilliant
but it somehow make me think
think about life in another way- looking at it as the one and only i actually get
but without this rush to capture every moement
seize every opportunity
and keep on running running
nooo
look as this one only life as each day is unique
as each day is an aim itself
soooo i actually started to focus on this
taking responsibility for every day
for evey minute
and being brave enough to say ok i have time to do this
I really do not have to finish my study then
i really do not have to go further in aiesec every year
i can stop
i can focus on sth else and go back
my life is my path
witch each single step
my own steps!
hugs

ater 14.04

It's for u although I do not think u visit this blog but maybe... more and more I see that the life is full of coincidences... that actually we make them happen today night hope to update myself ;-)

All my life I've been waiting
For you to bring a fairytale my way
Been livin in a fantasy without meaning
It's not okay I don't feel safe

I Don't Feel Safe Oohhh

Left broken empty in despair
Wanna breathe can't find air
Thought you were sent from up above
But you and me never had love
So much more I have to say
Help me find a way

And I wonder if you know
How it really feels
To be left outside alone
When it's cold out here
Well maybe you should know
Just how it feels
To be left outside alone
To be left outside alone

I'll tell you
All my life I've been waiting
For you to bring a fairytale my way
Been living in a fantasy without meaning
It's not okay I don't feel safe
I need to pray

Why do you play me like a game?
Always someone else to blame
Careless, helpless little man
Someday you might understand
There's not much more to say
But I hope you find a way

Still I wonder if you know
How it really feels
To be left outside alone
When it's cold out here
Well maybe you should know
Just how it feels
To be left outside alone
To be left outside alone

I'll tell you
All my life I've been waiting
For you to bring a fairytale my way
Been living in a fantasy without meaning
It's not okay I don't feel safe
I need to pray

oohhh ohhh Pray!

Heavenly father please save me (heavenly father Save me!)

oohhh oohhhh ohh

And I wonder if you know
How it really feels
To be left outside alone
When it's cold out here
Well maybe you should know
Just how it feels
To be left outside alone
To be left outside alone

Oohhhhh ohhhh

All my life I've been waiting
For you to bring a fairytale my way
Been living in a fantasy without meaning Oh!
It's not okay I don't feel safe
I need toooo praayy!

update vol 3

whats more- besides exams, task forces, meeting with nicky, national conference- random order;-)
Klimeczek is going to london on internship!!!
I m so happy about her but I will for sure miss her.
Basia is back to poland but not so to the reality?:(
Investyorself got a lots of applications and rocking time is so close!
We have PEACE and 2 interns staying in our place- one more will arrive tomorrow:-)
I spent relaxing weekend at home
I have long list of things to do!
I drank wine with Przemo:D
I talked with Marysia

:/

PEACE in the air-wow...
lots need to be said about that time;-)
but I have bad mood today...
sb killed a cat
stupid driver
I saw it first time 3 hours ago lying on the street here close to my block
in the paddle of blood:(:(:(
and...
3 hours later it is still lying there
dead body...
only a cat
probably writing about it and about human death in one post is for some people strange:/
but for me it is really hard always when I see dead animals:(
especially those killed by human beings just from our stupidness!!!:(:(:(
just because somehow we happened to be the most powerful creature in the world:(
we are but we cannot rescue ourselves from death...
grandpa of my cousin is dead
he was younger than our common grandparents
Im so happy to have my family members?
maybe I should appreciate it more?
hugs

update vol 2

in the meantime - talk with Nicky hm;;-)
so coming back to the topic;-)
I visited cinema two times woow
cause the last time was hm I donot remember
so deja vu - really ql movie
dlaczego nie hm
no comments happy that I was with amazing company so we laughed and enjoyed our time but movie was terrible

update!!!

ok i dunno how much time actually passed but a lot happened in my life
National Conferences lot of memories still feeling Im not able to make use of any single minute Im given
maybe I'm not trying hard enough?
Staying in touch and meeting with Nicky - actually wonder was it only one month chatting or coming back to old friendship- right now it is Tuesday and our last conversation was Thursday I think strange cause for about one month we chatted almost every day:/
Still meeting- was really inspiring and moving
kicking me out off my planned and designed life, showing new perspective
Reminding how stupid and naive Im still actually and maybe how idealistic maybe how weak
or actually remind me about all pieces making the person I am.
Time after national conference was time about elections - my results in Bulgaria
results of Polish MC
results of more Poles going abroad!!!
then two weeks in a row - working on task forces- talent management and projects
working on transformation map!
although it was exams time I was not able to deny this pleasure - yeah Im freak!
but work was really ql
spending hours with amazing individuals on discussions
sharing our often controversial points of view
in the mean time studying now I'm after almost all exams
results - not so bad around 4
still need to do sth with German-hope writing will be enough
Law of UE-need to go for exam cause i didn take it
and one sweet secret- no idea what to do with;-)

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random happy Faci team:-)
Bulgaria actually my country!!!:-)
memories memories = plans for the future

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