update

almost two weeks without writing here anything and pictures do not rememebr when was the last time
so...
YC! over- I wont come back on blog now to it
but still it was such a huge event and inspiration that I'm quite sure I will write sth about it with the wind of time;-)
Adapciak- ok lots of info I should mention here
- LTT totally crazy relations unforgetable lesson about life
about me
and how others percieve me
new people and deleates live;-)
first session and feedback to them
cirsises
personal
with delegates
with team
and then evaluation from delegates
I almost cried
I it was wow much more over my expectations
so enthusiastic about our organization
happy about its internationallity really understood in proper way
cause we had int oc and int AIESECers at the camp
delegates were enthusiastic about dream session even though it was so hm for me too much
they really liked it wow
eh I learnt so much during this time
amazing
lots of mistakes but at least opportunity to develop my copmetency- maybe 4th level;-) i learn from mistakes
and cannot imagine life without Adapciak eh so many thougts need to write them down
need to go back to my take over :-)

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yesterday I wrote post for here but sth went wrong with it:( so I will try to write one more time but I'm not sure about my memory.
First of all I feel bad that I didnt find time to write anything here...:/
no pictures I will try to put some here from YC! and Adapciak
but coming back to adapciak and last days- first of all it was the most demanding time in my life starting from yc! im older around 3 years.
I feel tired because of that but I get to know a lot
about me
myself
my world
my life
my people
and totaly strange to me people and world
their and my paradigms
its amaizng how intensive learning process can be
and now going to bed hope tomorrow will finally find time to write everything

after Adapciak
tired exhausted confused
but I realize one important thing never before have I learnt so much in such a short period of timeI feel like three years older probably thats why im tired
I learnt so much about me and myself- the whole eb holidays are crazy but this ceed, time after, yc, adapciak, recruitment i didnt expect it!
I know my character better and paradigm my disadvantages and things i have to work on
I know my mistkaes but Im learning from them
I know more abour world
people
attitudes
paradigms
soft skills
hard skills
life
AIESEC
memebers
If I were to make a list it would be almost neverending probably
I have so many things to write down here and pictures to share eh
:/
I survived time with limited access to the internet- adapciak but i felt really bad:(
I do not know what will I do about my flat now- i need to buy modem but sth is not ok with my comp:(so its not good cause then im not able to work normally:(
Everyday is surprise- with the internet lcc the venue
cahnge and crisis management
in fact im afraid i do not write anything interesting so i will try 2 write on my blog asap but still not today

there are people and ...people

eh my blog is so boring now;-) I need to find time to download some pictures!
But main idea fortoday- wy there are so many heartless people on the world?
I'm lucky I can say- last year I lost my wallet with los of money- and it was given back to me, this year on ceed the same with cellphone- as my mum sais good things come back to u.
I do not think im such a good or at least better than the others - during YC! so many robberies and probably by AIESEC memebers...:(and today I really cannot the point yes I also want to have more than I can afford really often clothes, software hardware- but not from sb else people!
and still I cannot afford everything but I can affrod lots why u dont appreciate what u have so many people have less really less than u!
:-(
My day huh Im more ill I should have stayed at home...but alwyas there is a but on one hand motiating but;-) so proud of effects of work and attitude of people on the other still on the verge of loosing urself the border is so thin:/
but night was nice and day in general too- Betty ok ur my motivation 4AutCo:* and lone time in office can be ok u can sleep on the chairs its quite comfortable and now studying huh the same problem seems so obvious and then..:/
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PD day by day:P

Sometimes I wish I wrote this blog in Polish so that quotationts such as Dupa! could be used here and make sense.
I'm in such a mood and attitude that I do not know if is is weekend or normal day and how long will I be able to speak:P but I know that I missed my EB and their behaviour- Dupa, Radzio eh ;-)
Exams are approaching, night EBM and then hot dogs at Statoil instead of sleeping or learningGod;-) I lost my mind
But we will do RB I'm a little bit afraid whether we will manage but Im proud of this decision:P
And I spent first night in my new flat- strange without Internet eh impossible is nothing even me staying without connection but I won't survive for long this way!
And i do not feel lilke home tghere totally:(
I had my place in old flat and feel even better at Czarny's place although I spent there like 3 nights- but the spirit is there I need to adjust my room!
And now its Friday so tomorrow is weekend i need to study for sure on Monday two exams and I know nothing:(
But at least day was nice- Basia was in Warsaw:-) its so strange- its obvious u meet friends in AIESEC ys for sure but amazing I had at least now the strongest relations with people I would never thought I will have realtion at all - huh I should stop assess people or I became more open?
And now strategic trainge with my EB boys beer and talk- before coming back to my lonely flat buuu;-);-(

inflammation of the trachea

Thats me after yc- ill unfortunatelly ok but it was for me wish wet hair, sleeping 40 minutes partying- the only problem Im here at hometown ilawa instead of being in wawa.
But this is another experience- how to communicate when u cannot speak? And Laska is here- no work in Poznan so she is in ilawa- we didnt chat so long since before ceed- ok maybe my speech was not satisfactor cause im ill but hope u will drop in Warsaw and then I will tell u everything, show pictures and whatever u wish!
Life in Ilawa is stranger for me- every visit here I feel less comfortable:( but I miss my family- the ideal solution take them to Warsaw or move alltogether there, where my place is, where my friends are.
Im happy cause I have people I can rely on! Czarny- the best of the best even if sometimes we want to kill each other;-)
Klimeczek THX 4 us support with Adapciak
Bassion- so far but so close thx
and finally virtual communication huh- Im gg freak but now I miss speaking with sb face to face;-)
On the other hand I see that without mee world is working;-) Im not so crucial I will try to remember it for later;-)
Neverthelles pace of life is really fast and I have a lot to do- recritument and final decission on how it should look like preparation eh crazy time!
but i like it i hope i will manage everything but who if not me right?
qualit managed yc! qulaity managed term
now time for making some future plans I think

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this stricte crazy time has passed I'm after CEED after You Can!- back to PD work only- hehe only;-) ahead- Adapciak, 2WGs, AutCo, second round of exams, recruitment approaching, EnterCEE, moving to new flat and small things e.i take over I wont write here- what for;-). You Can! this experience was amazing for me I didn't find time for wrap up thats a problem but I will do this tonight cause I really need it! cause I do ot want to lose anything from it. i managed internatioanl team, team od people I didnt select to work with, cooperate with Faci team- to be frank- really hard cooperation- much knowledge and inputs for me being faci, for my oc successors. I also have some mixed feelings- if I had led the team from the beginning there were so many things I would have done differently stil the effect was great I think I was afraid it will be worse. Personally I learnt a lot from my team especially from Mathias! lots from Faci team, too! eventhought the realtion was quiet taugh. I wish I had more time for speaking with them and delegates... I really wanted to get to know u people better! Im sad about these robberies and wonder if I really dealt with them in the best way!I found new things about myself- speaches, leading people traits of character, new inspiration ideas and motivation- now cannot wait to implemetn them- develop learning planner- and decide about review boards. I know how strong I can be and also how weak! Im still not sure about my future path but notcied new ideas and I'm sure I will attend IC 2008!!! in Brazil my all steps in AIESEC will lead me to this goal! I also know Im not as tolerant as open as I thought and sometimes too spontaneuous I know know mch more but now going for dinner for sure will write more!:*

after YC

huh so yc is over we managed we rock! but now its eb life, new work tasks duties and im a little bit ill but i will try to make up asap:*