emotions

blogging was alwyas connected with them... the break was the reason or the result?
still I just noticed I froze sooo many emotions for the last months- seems irrational? with soe many things, ppl, but that's true they were frozen, now they are escaping from me and its painful and it's hard to control. I cannot stand this phase of my life I feel like taking holiday from reality, from ppl around from the situations that keep on repeating:/