tbc

tbc menas also eating natural yoghurt and other stuff like that;-)
So thats why somehow it sounded like growing up suggesting being totally immature ;-) before but this is also not true cause if i were immature im still ;-) So i rahther say Im balanced but somehow with age u change and im really curious why is it so how is it working etc hmmm... new hobby or new questions or just new reasons for random investigations ;-)
But this is also true and however I cannot totally agree with I;-) for female people - yeah we are also people;-) means having this feeling and emotions when seeing small children and happy couples and other made in bolywood or hollywood stuff :]. So of course however I sometimes seem I also feel into this wow so cute aaae;-) but with of course my own weird realization. :) Yes so cool I wanna have a babe of course still three D and this house and with this super MR X or whosoever but... I dont insist anymore that not now cause Im not ready and need to go to Asia and commit suicade and come back on Earth etc- meaning typical fear of being adult ;-) but Im rather really into whatever happens is the right thing to happen however shitty it was for me one year ago - like on of the biggest bulshits of the world now i think its all in all even smart;-). Cause I still plan to go to Asia like ok now MC later on one internship in India, one in HongKong and maybe still in between somewhere this idea MCP or internship or sth in Africa, but on the other hand if Im to meet MR X on the corner tonight I dont feel this pursuit to travel and go on and go on with being citizen of the world without home with big H. But ... I also dont go around looking for MR X i sit in the bus deep in my books, I dont have much free time and go our running with best friend ipod rather than stretching;-) to meet soem super cute smart ass I dont have acount on any of this helping people who think its too late think even more that its too late and this is only reason for them to create couple etc shits. Im balanced? is it possible? I am. I can go in the mountains for the weekend and just checking mailbox once a day to see whats up. I spend the time in the bus to read some relaxing books. I can go for a walk. I have time to cook and can eat what I want. I can go where I want, wherever... and this is so cool cause also I more and more know where this wherever shall lead to...
I think most of the people are puking at this point of time not reading more but... :D
I also discover why Mr X is not priority in my life - I hate pretending and being not honest and natural and as long as m not fully stating for myslelf - like a job and place to live i feel its not just the moment - why im writing this? cause im so happy im not in spring madnees and all in all that im not getting crazy as some people around seem to