a lot of thoughts and things happening around...

... so let start with some random thoughts as usually.
Getting older or growing up.
Both titles are not appropriate for content of my head- I think Im getting older - true, but older like omg old aaaaa panic in the air oh i will be older and older and i will die or sth but I feel older cause:
- I really like my own company I dont need people to go for a walk, to restaurant, drink a wine, go to the cinema etc.
I dunno if its only me but one year before i would have needed a company, people around or think only lonely people do so. Maybe it is because with age ur more appreciating urself world around and u do need external appreciation?
So maybe its better to use growing up, but i dont feel i was so f*** childish one year back or sth, but still there is some boarded that I think I passed Im not sure when but it happened.
You know it wen u start eating things you wouldnt eat before like pistachios
tbc