too much

most probably only few people will be able to read this post
it is not about beeing frustrated
it is about discovering who you are.
It is about ability to see you from outside when the only mirror you have is a small mirror in the bathroom - do u still know body, your figure?
It is about the feeling when u have too many thoughts in one moment to put them in ur head.
It is about sitting and not thinking and than realizing you again think about That !
It is about the will to run fast and far and the will to sleep sleep sleep.
It is about thinking and english and discovering friends from pl who are far away and all in all most probably will neve live in the same town as you.
It is about passion about future and being too exhasuted to fight for it
It is about being amazing bitch not able to fight for own interest.
It is about disappointment with some people and some fascinations with loosers who are far away from success but are nice, or have nice office?! sick this was really too much !
it is about hating loosers but not thos who fail- actually it is about admiring these who fail and stand up.
It it about lack of ability to say to sb fuck off and hurting people without realizing it.
It is about wasting time.
It is about me...
the only mising part of my life now...
me?
do u know me?
can u help me to find myself?
do u know my directions?

it is about thinking too much? feeling too much? analyzing too much?maybe it is about fear?!