bye bye

SO it happened. Just about hour ago I said bye to my mum, she is now flying above some countries going home.
And I'm staying here - in hm my home?
Still dont feel here at home and probably I will not- not because of the country but AIESECer life style.
Student lifestyle. I think Im growing up;-) I want to have my home, just a safe place that I can design.
Still dunno where I will live so this home can be even in Ilawa- just small house close to the lake- that you can come back whenever u need- yeap in time of flights its not so hard :-).
So now my Polish will be virtual and books- I read already all newspapers brought by my mum- my mixed feeling about poland, current direction are just another story.
I will not do any shopping, hard discussion or anything till 20 of dec. Its a strange feeling somehow.
Yes this is true u easily get used to nice things.
Although hard time with my mum was nice. Was lazy and comfortable.
It gave me lots of thoughts, started some changes.
Dunno why Im not able to explain everything here- probably cause some are just pure feelings, emotions that are not so clear on paper or screen:/